Hello,
Its me, your future. I wish I can talk to
you directly, because honestly there’s a lot of things
that i need you to know.
You know what, im 23 now. Can you believe
it? you never really thought that you’re going to be
able to live pass 20 since you always ate tons of
instant noodles back then in junior high. You smoked
too, but eventually i managed to quit smoking habit. Now
I don’t even smoke, I use a nicotine replacement of
course, since you always believe that nicotine is
harmless, the other substances are the harmful one.
Unfortunately, I didn’t have the life that you always
dreamed of. I never got into campus politics. I never
had the chance to participate in pragmatic politics. And
im sorry for that, I ruin your dream. Our dream to be
exact. But then I realize, maybe ‘God’ protect you away
from that murky water that people call politics. you
also spend 2 years in vain, since I made a terrible
mistake to assume something as a basis to make a
decision. That was stupid, I know. And again, I’m sorry
for ruining your life.
Life sucks. you always think that growing up is fun, but
eventually it’s not even close to fun. Growing up is
like eating away cold porridge and you got no water to
drink. It’s disgusting. Maybe for some people growing up
is fun, but not for me, nor for us; it sucks. Maybe the
primary reason why growing up was sucks for us is I made
the worst choice that can be made by a youth. But then
people said, you never really learn if you never really
fail, and I called it bullshit.
Sometimes i envy those who can spen their life properly
at college. I mean, those are probably the best time
that a man can ever had. Living free, chasing dreams,
hanging out with friends,
got drunk, for sure and many more stuff. And i
regret to tell you that we miss those moments. I choose
to had an early career but then i never had a career and
just simply wasting my time for 6 years in the house
watching series and jerking off.
I hope that this letter reminds me to be cautios
whenever i’m trying to make some big decision. Because
after all, I oyou you an apology, a big one of course.
That’s the main reason why I wrote this letter anyway.
Sincerely
You, 8 years later